Friday, December 21, 2007

Message from Juju's "Big Mama"...

Julian's "Big Mama" is better known as Teresa by Julian's family. She is Mimi's best friend and these are her words from Juju's Carepages. Get your tissues! "This day has come not because we asked for it or planned this. And I can see it from two different pair of eyes. The eyes of a friend looking in: I see what I call the definition of a hero. The courage and strength that can sore like the wings of eagles, when it keeps him from being scared when the pain just won’t stop. I see the heart of a lion trying to keep the monster at bay just to see him have the abilities to still be a little boy. I see the memories being made to treasure and never being forgotten. All the choices being made for him. Selfless in the daily struggle we call life. The sleep isn’t there the strength isn’t there, but through Gods grace she is enough. Knowing that life will go on no matter how she feels no matter how it will hurt. She is a mama that loves with out boundaries and still sees others and reaches out knowing she has nothing left but gives all. She is my Best Friend. The second pair of eyes is that of a Big Mama: Life is always about changes. Not like this with out a choice. Looking at my Juju I see a little guy with all the potential of the world ahead of him he is sooo smart. He should have been anything and everything. He is perfect. Life happens and the choices are taken from us. Julian’s life has changed now the path that has been set before him has changed. No longer will we have a choice in his future. God has a bigger plan one filled with a perfect body. Two legs that run and two arms that can play. What mother would keep this future from her son? Our hearts will be broken our lives will be incomplete, but he will be whole. The only part of this nightmare that makes any sense is God gave me my best friend Mimi. I know that people are put in our lives and taken from our lives as a part of Gods plan one we will only understand when we see each other again when we are together again in Heaven. Our lives are still changing. How do we help our other children to understand life isn’t fair. If Mamas should understand it and cant or should I say don’t want to, how now do we ask the children too. You can’t ask them to put Julian first and let him go. They don’t want to. They are children and they will not choose to hurt they know that is wrong. We as parents have taught them to hurt is bad. And now we are changing our minds. Life isn’t fair, this isn’t fair. His breathing it is changing. Soon we will all be changed. Know this... we are all better people just because he has been a part of our lives. Like a ray of sunshine that kisses your face just long enough to make you smile. That is my Juju my Little Sunshine. Forever Love Big Mama."

12 comments:

Dawn said...

Thinking about Julian's brothers breaks my heart the most. :*(

Karla said...

Prayers and more prayers to Julian and his family. (And no chocolate for me, in his name.)
KR

Heather said...

What a sweet little face. His radiance shine's through all the trials.

Saša G. said...

My heart breaks for precious KinG JuJu and all his dearest ones;-( And NO, IT IS SOOOO NOT FAIR!

tammy said...

What a sweet boy. Breaks my heart that these little ones have to go through things like this. We have a friend that also has a son with a brain tumor. I know it's not easy.

Tracy said...

I read this and I think of my kids. I don't know what one would be without the other ones there to guide, to aggravate, to stand up for. All three of my kids depend on each other more than they could ever realize.
And as a mother, I could not imagine trying to find the strength to say goodbye to one of my babies. Not after all of the plans that I've made and the things that I've had to look forward to with each one of them.
Please let her know that we are thinking of her. And keep us posted on Julian.

Anonymous said...

My thoughts and prayers are with JuJu and all who love him...my daughter and I pray for Julian every night (as well as two other children we know of who also have cancer). It is beyond sad and as others have said, so unfair....

Peace and love,
Kim

Pam said...

I know you gave the tissue warning...but I just couldn't help crying! It makes me hug and hold my children just a little tighter. This family is in our constant prayers!

Too Little Time said...

And knowing that no matter how much we love our children, Our Father loves us so much more. We can't always change what our children encounter in life, all we can do is be there to comfort - May Gods love embrace you all - karrie

Karla said...

Michelle,
A Merry Christmas to you and your family.
KR

Shellie said...

Peace and love to you this Christmas. Praying for the miracle of peace and the strength to endure for the Averys. That little man is so brave. I really can't stand what they are going through. I have often thought how very hard it would be for one of my twins or one of my pseudo twins to lose the other. It would be so devastating. Just keep praying for them!

papersunshine said...

I woke up very early this morning with Julian on my mind and said a prayer for him and his family once again, I pray for them several times a day but twice now I have had this urgent feeling to pray. Mostly for Peace for all of them. I look at my 5 year old and I just can't imagine.